You think to yourself "whats the harm, no one will know"
Even with this you still feel a little awakward and guilty
You try to shake this from your head telling yourself taht you deserve it
You check the locks, dim the lights and pull out a few of your favorite candles
Along with lighting the candles, you put on some slow jams to set the mood for yourself

One deep breath and you loosen up and relax a little
Tying your hair up in a pony tail, you try to tell yourself its to keep it out of your face
In reality, you know that if it touches your neck once you get started it'll be like teasing yourself extra
Walking over to the full length mirror in your bedroom you smooth your tshirt over your ample breasts and flat tummy
You break a smile and try to look innocent in the mirror reassuring yourself that its ok
Next, the shirt comes up over your head and youre there naked from the waste up
Immediatly your nipples are as big as gumdrops from the cold chill that hits you with no bra
You give them a soft pinch and they stiffen instantly and all doubt leaves your mind

You get eager and slid a couple fingers between your hips and the waistband of your sweats
With one push, your sweats and bright red boy shorts are bunched around your ankles
You step out of them and look back in the mirror, admiring your figure
Youre hands start to slide all over your body, every touch sending shivers all over
You feel the slightest hint of moisture develop between the heat of your thighs
You strut over to your dresser with your head high to pull out your box of toys
With an impressive collection, it takes you a minute to decide, but you choose one of your old favorites
Bigger and thicker than any real man youve ever had
Right next to it is a tube of lube, but you decide against it cause it only makes a mess and you can do that all by yourself
You crawl on the bed to get started, but you remember the last time
You hop down and run over to the closet to get a towel to put down
Now youre really ready to start, but cant decide what to do first
You slide the head in your mouth to lube it up for more special places
But you lick and suck a little more than need be and you keep pushing more and more down your throat
You hit the back of your throat, but your gag reflex doesnt kick in and it just keeps goin
Finally!! You hope youre finally able to deep throat from all your practicing
You keep going harder and faster and deeper
Pretty soon youre ramming it into your face at a fierocious pace, it reminds you of that fantasy you have of a man just having his way with your face
This makes you really hot so you slide a finger down your stomach, slowing as you reach your pubic mound
You trace a few circles around your clit, just making sure shes awake
Wasting no time, you plunge two fingers inside your slit and you still having missed a beat sucking
Its had more of an affect on you than you realized, youre already dripping wet and those fingers go in no problem
You slide your long rubber friend out of your mouth one last time and expertly flick your tongue over the head
Seeing it and realizing how much you had down your throat you have to have it inside you again